Tomorrow marks the middle point of the year. It feels like it’s gone faster than most years and 2015 has certainly been a challenging one for me (so far). It’s not really gone according to plan and I’ve been left feeling a bit deflated and exhausted by it all. But I’m a big believer in the power of a fresh start. In deciding to remember that “what’s done is done” and there’s now a chance to get back on track.
I’ve spent almost every spare moment that I’ve not been working on SFAHH trying to get to the bottom of the cause of my injury that lead me to drop out of the half marathon last year and it’s really taken a toll, both emotionally and financially. At the start of the year I looked to be on track to run a marathon before my 30th birthday* and now that’s not a possibility. I’ve had to give up running for the year, and hope that the break (and more treatment) will mean that in 2016 I might be able to run, even just for the fun of it.
I’m not going to lie, it’s been disheartening to say the least. Tears have been shed and I’ve questioned the little things and the big things. It’s teaching me that no matter how much patience you think you have, you can always have more. Don’t get me wrong, I know things could be much worse, but it’s worn me down and I’m ready to reframe it. Having this blog has been a great way to escape from it for just a bit. It’s been a chance to focus on the good things and on something that I actively want to build for my future.
This has been a year of change for SFAHH too. I always wanted to give myself time to work out what this should be. Where it fits in the world and what I can offer, you, my readers to help you create your happy homes too. I think I’ve found it now. Running the e-course for the first time has been amazing and I can’t wait to run it again with more wonderful people. There will be ebooks and other fun (free) stuff too. It’s time to put my confetti covered business hat on and make something of this.
And then there’s the country move. It seems so impossible right now after health issues have taken my focus. I always have a drive with these crazy ideas. To make them happen ASAP. But this needs to be a slow burn, I think. A longer term goal. Not because it’s not important, but because things need to happen in order sometimes. Money comes before the move, to make the move happen. It’s stupidly tricky when money is not what motivates – but it is what makes the world go round.
It feels a little raw to share this all with you. Like you’re seeing into a part of my head that I’ve not quite worked out how it fits into my happy home. But, maybe that’s why I should share it? Because happy homes are made up of so much more than just the good moments. They are made from the struggle to intentionally make them a reality too. Maybe we can’t have one without the other? I don’t know.
That’s why I’m choosing to treat tomorrow like New Year’s Day. Like a new chance to get back on track, without any NYE party hangovers. To take what I’ve learnt so far this year and action the bits I need to and make peace with the rest. 6 months until a new year. Just under 6 months until I’m 30. I’m going to give it a go.
If this year has been a struggle for you; if you feel like you need a reset too; why don’t you join me and we can celebrate tomorrow as a chance to get things back on track. To try again. To be kinder to ourselves. Want to give it a go?
Let’s do this thing!
How’s 2015 tracking for you? Need a reset?
*An entirely crazy idea of it’s own, but it’s what kept me motivated to rehabilitate the injury over 9 of the last 10 months.