Yesterday, the awesome Veggie Mama published this blog post that said so many of the things I’d been thinking about my own blog. I’ve had trouble writing here since I took a break at Christmas last year and it’s not that I don’t have words, it’s just that I’m tired of trying to make everything useful. I miss when I wrote effortlessly. When I was excited about self employed life and all the possibilities.
The seasons have changed. Not just the weather ones, but the ones that describe where you are right now. I remember a blogger writing about these seasons (though I can’t remember for the life of me who it was). I think she was talking about the season that is you having wee babies to look after and it being all-consuming. But I think seasons also apply out of that.
I’m not really self employed anymore. I’m looking to grow in a new career and the writing here doesn’t feel useful or effortless right now. And maybe that’s ok?! I’m sure I’ll be back. I’m still finding my feet with this new look of my life. Still working out what to do with the hours and days I’m not working. It’s so different from working from home. There are new routines to create and new challenges too.
I keep thinking of businesses I could try, and then filing them away in the “just, no” box in my brain, because I just can’t start anything like that again right now. I’m looking for a hobby other than the gym, and so far, other than rewatching One Tree Hill, I’m trying out being an NBA fan. (Are you pulling a face at me? Because I totally would be)
Last week I spent an hour learning about how the Charlotte Bobcats became the Charlotte Hornets and how (through some stuff that was super confusing) they then got all the old stats of the original Charlotte Hornets from ’88 until those Hornets moved to New Orleans. I blame One Tree Hill and its basketball story line. Anyway, they play like 3 times a week at the moment, so that gives me something to look at on google every few days and I can pretend that I understand how it all works. We’ll see if it sticks.
I also bought some frypans that were 45% off at work and I’m excited to use them, because the non-stick on my current pan is really “stick” because everything you try to cook sticks to it no matter what you do and making dinner has included more dirty looks and swears than entirely necessary for your standard meal. May these ones be awesome and not so frustrating!
I’m going to stop rambling now. But I feel better for sharing. How are things with you?